With gratitude…

I’m taking this week’s Monday Musings as an opportunity to express gratitude to some friends who have been around when I needed them the most.


“From the outside looking in, it’s hard to understand. From the inside looking out, it’s hard to explain.”

When you are emotionally connected to something, be it a friendship, a relationship, or even words, losing that connect would leave a void that seems difficult to fill. Losing connect to one might even affect connect to the other, because through us, they are all somehow interlinked, albeit inadvertently. I lost someone in April, and like a domino effect, I seem to have lost a lot afterward.

One positive that has remained throughout the many negatives is the support of a few friends. Friends don’t always need to be thanked, but it is good to express gratitude at times too.

“The struggle ends when gratitude begins.” – Neale Donald Walsch

I have been more silent than I usually am, been forgetful of certain things, even very blunt with my words than I would usually be. Sadness or anger doesn’t become a reason or an excuse for being careless with words, and that’s something I understand. Some friends became distant from this version of me. Some even walked away. I tried to become my old self, but one bad day apparently overwhelms the many good days from before. They chose to remain on their path.

I’ve accepted that their path is not the one I’m on. I’m grateful to those friends who have stuck by me, who have given me the space to find myself, yet stayed nearby saying, “This too shall pass.” That has helped me a lot. Even now, I cannot say that I’m truly back, but those friends understand that I am healing now, faster than I was before.

“Friends show their love in times of trouble, not in happiness.” – Euripides
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I had lost my muse too. I stopped writing during the April A to Z challenge, leaving it after the O post. They say sadness can be the best inspiration to write, but reality is that sadness can actually pull us down too. Since I left the challenge, I had been able to write just one post in May and in June as well. My gratitude goes out to those friends who kept reminding me that words can be cathartic. They believed in my words even when I did not.

Writing each Sunday on the same topic helped a lot to find my words again. Monday Musings too made a difference. The Write Tribe Whatsapp group, with the chats on blogging, the 5 sentence fiction challenges etc. pushed me out of the block further. And over the last ten days, I wrote for 7 days in a row. I feel like I am better, and as such, I will be completing the remaining 11 letters of the A to Z. I know it’s not an official challenge win, but for me, that is enough.

“Success is dependent on effort.” – Sophocles

A milestone birthday is nearing. I’ve always felt that age is just a number. I am very childish at times, and at other times, very mature. Many around me feel that this “age” is too old, that I have to do some things, and give up on some things now. Their attitude is something that becomes too difficult to handle at times, and I slip into a frustrated mode that I do not like. Friends who have “been there, done that” keep pulling me out of that mode. Their presence restores some of my sanity. They hear me out, knowing that I’m not pretending to be happy. Only then do they show me the reasons I have to be thankful for.

“A friend is someone who gives you total freedom to be yourself.” – Jim Morrison

I had lost a lot in these last few months, some of which cannot be expressed properly in words. When that overwhelmed me, I lost hope, happiness and belief. But I’m slowly finding my feet again. There are those who are holding me up till I can be sure that I won’t fall for a while. I don’t need to name names, they know who they are. Thank you for helping me to find the beauty in life again.

“Good friends help you to find important things when you
have lost them… your smile, your hope, and your courage.”
– Doe Zantamata
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With gratitude…


(© Vinay Leo R. @ I Rhyme Without Reason,
14th August, 2017)

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Poetry & writing are to me, a breath of fresh air in a life that is sometimes covered by the smoke of sorrow or self doubt. They also become the sweets I share to celebrate when life offers me a reason to. But most of all, they are to me, my life. For each word I write is a piece of my heart, a thought that just had to find its way into the world.

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    • Yeah. Changing the notions of society will be difficult, Ishi. I’m not trying to push that, but when those notions are pushed on me, it becomes a little heavy. Definitely hanging in there. 😛

  1. At times we wonder why do certain things happen the way they have happened??? “Time” holds the answer, my grandfather used to tell me. A man is made by the seasons he weathers… You sure will emerge stronger and a better more mature person!
    Congratulations for having written for 7 days in a row! And all the best for finishing the A to Z challenge… this time for self!
    Wish you a very happy birthday, in advance! Keep growing and blogging!
    – Anagha From Team MocktailMommies
    https://mocktailmommies.blogspot.com

    • I hope that “time” holds the answers to those, but it’s not likely that the heart would accept the answer, even if it were true. It’s funny like that, Anagha.

      Thank you. I hope to finish the A to Z too, even if it is for self-satisfaction. Thank you for the advance birthday wishes as well.
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  2. Hugs, Vinay. You’ve been a huge motivator for the Whatsapp Group and the Festival of Words and it’s been wonderful having you around. I’d say that gratitude is working for us, isn’t it? Keep writing, you and I know its healing effects.

    • Hmm. The Whatsapp group has been fun for me too, Corinne, and I hope that continues to be so. Hoping for another Festival of Words soon too. Yes, gratitude and writing seem to work, and it does bring at least a bit of calmness back to a very bumpy life.
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  3. A heart felt post to read vinay. I am glad that you pushed the barriers to move forward and my cheers to all those friends who stuck with you and encouraged you. I can so relate to it as during my worst breakdown it was my friends who lifted my spirits and kept me close even when i was pushing everyone away! Its great that you have got such friends in your life, hold on to them. such friends are priceless!

    • Friends are the main reason why I’ve reached where I’ve reached, Keerthi. They were a rock many years back, and though some have rolled away, others have been there to stop me from falling off the edge. I’m thankful for their presence in my life.
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  4. Vinay I love the line – ” they are on their path and I am on my own”. It sums up my journey with a few of my friends too, friends I am grateful to having found in my life, who shared lot of my pain and helped me up when I needed to be. But there came a point where we parted – I guess their need in my life or my karmic debts to them were done!
    Everybody comes into your life for a season or a reason!!! I truly believe this and have learnt to let go of the ones who walk away. Yes it does hurt for a bit but then someone new comes in.
    I have also learnt to value and cherish the ones who have been there since kingdom come and are the true mirrors of my soul!!!
    Stay strong and as you said, this too shall pass. It indeed does!!
    All the best!
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  5. Vinay, you can’t control what’s happening around you. In one moment, we are happy and ecstatic and in another, sad and gloomy. It’s a cycle that’s going to happen all through our lives. And in that journey, there will be friends who will stick with you through all times, no matter what and there will also be some who walk away. As human beings, we are probably weighed down by the bad things. But it’s important to look at the upside – that will help you find your groove back. I’m glad that you are slowly finding it. Your recent writings have been a delectable treat as has been your sense of humor in the Write Tribe WhatsApp group as well as in our chats. I’m sure you’ll be your normal self in no time. Hugs!
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    • I know I can’t control what’s happening around me, or what emotions come one minute and then the other. But I am human, Sreedeep, and can’t help but hold on to few things a little longer than I am meant to. I’m glad that there are few friends who do stick no matter what, and they make a lot of difference in my life.

      I am happy to be finding my groove again too, and I hope the “block” does not come back sooner. 🙂

  6. Bad times come to all of us and as you said we need the support and encouragement from others, particularly our friends to help us through. In my experience there is always someone to help us overcome bad times and even if there are no friends around, the strangers who help us become life long friends. Indeed, friends are essential for one’s well being and I am really grateful that my friends have always stood by me in thick and thin.
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    • Yes, I agree, Sunitha. There is someone always listening, and that is very good. 🙂 Some strangers have become lifelong friends as well. Good to have friends who stand by you in thick and thin.

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