Oh! These obsessions!

In response to the prompts at OctPoWriMo Day 12, Magpie Tales #241 and Sunday Whirl #182.
Shared with The Poetry Pantry, Imaginary Garden Open Link Night and as part of UBC Day 12.


 

Image given at Magpie Tales #241: Self-Portrait, Vivien Maier.
Image given at Magpie Tales #241: Self-Portrait, Vivien Maier.

what do I see in this mirror?
in my eyes staring me back;
in that hypnotizing old stare,
there is an obsession there,
desire to reach what I want,
even if I can’t find anywhere;
it tortures me and teases me,
and helpless, I can only stare.

there is a glimpse of flesh,
but I only observe the flaws,
one that is born of rumors,
from eyes that only seek it,
and express without a pause;
those eyes train mine to see,
expect what they expect,
I yearn not perfection, but
their words expect it of me.

what do I see in this mirror?
in my eyes staring me back,
I yearn to see my strengths,
but I see what I think I lack;
in that moment, I do forget,
that a machine, I am not,
but that is what I yearn for,
lost in obsessive thought.


 
(12th Oct 2014)

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Poetry & writing are to me, a breath of fresh air in a life that is sometimes covered by the smoke of sorrow or self doubt. They also become the sweets I share to celebrate when life offers me a reason to. But most of all, they are to me, my life. For each word I write is a piece of my heart, a thought that just had to find its way into the world.

  

38 thoughts on “Oh! These obsessions!

  1. It is always interesting to contemplate the mirror’s reflection. So true that sometimes the image teases and other times it tortures. We do have to accept what the mirror offers us though…no other choice. Smiles.
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  2. I think the majority of us more readily see the flaws than the strengths, especially as we age. Thanks for visiting my site and I wish you well on your journey with words,

    Elizabeth
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  3. Lost in obsessive thoughts

    So much to see and so many expected but sadly not readily visible. But still it is good to yearn for them. Hopefully some may find their way to be seen. Nicely Vinay!

    Hank

    • There is much to see, but we expect to see what others expect to see sometimes, and obsess about it, forgetting that others’ expections aren’t always realistic. If what we truly yearn for ourselves comes our way, then we’re good to go. Thank you, Hank. Glad you liked my poem.
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  4. I’ve never thought I was even remotely attractive, but I’ve always enjoyed looking at my reflection, especially in a window when there might be trees or clouds reflected as well. Weird, huh?
    I think life tends to be spent attempting to discover ourselves.
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    • A reflection in a window with a view sounds really serene, Opal πŸ™‚ I like seeing that reflection too. Not about attractiveness as such, but quite a few of us tend to look at the flaw than what makes us attractive, even the goodness of heart. And yes, I do agree. Our lives are spent attempting self discovery!
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  5. “There is a glimpse of flesh, but I only observe the flaws…”
    Why is that the most truthful line in most women’s self-talk? You capture the essence in this poem.

  6. I’ve always felt that we are our own worst critics, we find faults in ourselves where there are none and refuse to accept the goodness within us. I’ve also noticed that unless you value yourself, the world too will not.
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