it feels so strange today…
the people around me
seem to be there, yet
they don’t seem to be.
what felt still yesterday
feels a blur somehow,
know I’m not alone, yet
I feel lonely right now.
my joy seems adrift,
on an ocean of sorrow;
in scars of yesterdays,
drown my tomorrows.
even when I’m winning,
like a failure that seems;
try as I do, I cannot find
those precious dreams.
in this feeling, I am lost,
in this quicksand I sink;
oozing out of thoughts,
a river of blood red ink.
a nightmare, recurring,
consumes my thought;
I wonder why I let it to
And just continue to rot.
maybe it’s a phoenix,
meant to die and live;
it takes more from me
than I do have to give.
just questions appear,
no answers right now;
but I know that I must
figure it out somehow.
(July 19th, 2013)
Vinay Leo R.
Poetry & writing to me are to me, a breath of fresh air in a life that is sometimes covered by the smoke of sorrow or self doubt. They also become the sweets I share to celebrate when life offers me a reason to. But most of all, they are to me, my life. For each word I write is a piece of my heart, a thought that just had to find its way into the world.
You’re reading my mind. Its definitely weird today 🙁
Same here…. today has been very weird.. zapped of every bit of enthu and energy.. may be it is the over energy of the past two day.. could be the drain.. or it could be that telepathy between friends.. gloomy day it is! huuuugs
Maybe it was just an off-Friday for all of the world, Pinny. Hope you are much better now! 🙂
Just an off-Friday, Bhavya. Hope you are better!
brilliant poem! the angst was intense! Keep writing. 🙂
Thanks, Jayanth! Will do 😛
We all have days like this, when nothing seems to make sense. I personally believe those are good days, because they cause us to introspect so much more than happy days! I’ve made my best decisions in such times of restlessness.
I have personally made some rubbish decisions during times of restlessness, Corinne, so I try not to make big decisions during the time! But yes, it is a good time to introspect. Thank you.
Absolutely beautiful composition Leo!! It is just like you, the Leo from I rhyme imprint all over it…… and this has flowed so smoothly creating little ripples!! Applause!! Applause!!
Thanks, Nanka. What can I say? Gloom makes me inspired I guess.
Its a very beautiful poem Leo. It felt like you just put my thoughts across!
Thanks, Rajrupa. 🙂
Leo, this is very intense and poignant.! The emotions expressed by you are felt by all of us some time or the other.
Thanks, Usha ji. I hope one doesn’t feel it too often though!
Beautiful and intense lines Leo. Especially loved the last Paragraph which sends out a positive message.
Thanks, Diana. I’m not very positive I’ll figure it out, but I can hope that I do 😉 Glad you liked the poem.
Hugs Leo!!
Glad for the hugs, Pixie! Thanks! Feeling better!
sounds like you must if you plan to survive….
I think so too! Thanks, Brian!
There definitely are those times in life when there are more questions than answers. Hopefully the questions eventually lead to answers. I think you just have to keep your open mind…and listen…
I’m trying to do just that, Mary! 🙂 Thank you.
Answers most often appear when we stop looking for them 🙂 ~peace, Jason
Very true, Jason! Maybe relaxing might be the best way! 🙂
Or…as works wonders for me, I busy myself with the things that I love to do– and somehow, things just seem to righten themselves. Best of luck~Jason
Yes, that works too 😉
“just questions appear,
no answers right now;
but I know that I must
figure it out somehow.”
Your not alone, when you find the answers feel free to share !!!
If I find it, I will do, Cloud! 😛
I feel bad saying I like this one, but I do. But today, I felt this way and you wove it so well. Some days are just not meant to be over thought…in my opinion. Maybe it’s the moon or a whacky combination of whatevers, here’s to a better day tomorrow with or without the whys for today. 😉
Glad you liked the poem, Dawn. I guess it is quite okay to feel that way some days, and we usually do! Cheers to better days! 🙂
‘in scars of yesterday
drown my tomorrow.’
That’s a really powerful line, Leo, and it speaks to the way so many of us cannot let go of yesterday, with all it’s regrets and hurts, and so we allow it to kill the potential that tomorrow has.
I do try to let go of it, Tony, but some days, it comes back to haunt me, really badly! So the regret and pain feels twice as much then! Thanks!
Phoenix See You
Hope so, Katie!