Circumstances have pulled us apart,
We are separated by many miles.
Truly, the only thing that keeps me going,
Is my treasured memory of our past.
Surely things change, but the times that were and the moments which were, have absolutely no comparison to anything what so ever. For a 22 year old, I was way too chirpy and enthusiastic about making friends and knowing people. It was probably the anxiousness to be known and recognized as the good girl in the bad world. The internet as always, the major outlet and inlet for any south Asian girl was my means to connect with the world beyond home.
It was Orkut. The place where Sam met me and together we sparked vivaciously. It just did not matter where we lived and how we met ends, we just had that connection which bloomed a fantastic picture in my present. I could only imagine something like it. And he put pictures in those fragments. It was wonderful, that time was wonderful.
I remember the time not long ago,
When we laughed and shared it all,
We were the very best of friends,
Or at least that’s what I thought.
It was all going fine. Leading to a wonderful time from going to parties to visiting places my folks would never let me. Yes I lied when I was friends with him. He was the only escape I had from my misery and I tried to think less of it and more of the fantastic things that were happening to me. I left my boyfriend (first and last) just because he said ‘he is taking me for granted and I should stop abusing my existence in trying to make an unworkable relationship work’. My friends perceived us as more than best friends and that is where it probably started to evolve into something much more. I never had a guy for a best friend and he was just so adorable to just be a friend. They said we looked great together and maybe that is what kept taking me away from friendship and more towards dreaming to make a home with him. I will not lie. I can never. He was probably the only one with whom I could actually picture me as a complete woman. He told me I was in no comparison to anyone. I was way beyond the ordinary. His words kept drifting me and I loved the whole feel. Emotions I had plenty. There were so many highs and so many lows. But I was determined, not knowing that he too could have another side of the story.
I guess, everything is about taking chances,
Even when you think you’re all out of chances.
It’s about forgiveness and unconditional love,
Even when it seems like you should only do the opposite.
Things change as time goes on and we did too. After the demise of what we had two years ago, I now stand the ground where I make friends but there is no hard core dependence on their words and opinions. Yes I hear them, but I keep my word as final. I have no best friend, that I realized is a spot reserved for my hubby. I shall brag on Leo’s blog too just to bore you our of your wits 😛 but then what is honesty all about. I am needy and I am greedy and no way a beggar. So before you jump onto the fatal ride of judging me, think again.
Friendships are there to help sail life a little soothingly. But due to the drastic aging, stupidity gets to me too fast. I am allergic to BS! You are too! If you stop being such a goodie goodie.
I’ve come to accept a lot of things that’s happened even though I might not like them. I’ve stopped searching for anything except the goodness of God and I know that somewhere out there lies my happiness and contentment. I will achieve it only through my faith, patience and goodness… and when the time is right.
Time… I am playing by the rules even today. I know that time has a say but that time is only controlled by God and in God lays my humble faith for always and forever.
Leo- my unconditional thank you for letting me recall a moment in time. This is the desi way to do it because the desi me had one good friend or rather great – no one has been able to make me forget him – no one! As sad as that is, my traditional brains just short circuit on the first shot of their stupidity. God bless the threads of friendship and may we all find true friends as we stroll along in life.
Thank you Leo for the honor and I just hope I did it justice. Thanks for helping me smile a little **smile Gracias!
(c) Americanising Desi
It feels somewhat odd to introduce a blogging celebrity to you all, but most of you anyways would know who Americanizing Desi is! She’s one of Blogsville’s most known bloggers, writing on umpteen topics from love, to friendship to doin tag memes! 😉 She’s my friend for some time now, and I welcome a good friend to write on the desi friendship… Thanks AD!